Unstuck
Before the experience, I felt blocked, stuck and confused. I felt stuck in my journey as an entrepreneur, transformative leader, and CEO. I wondered if I was pursuing my life’s purpose. If it was all worth it for Amek. If I was happy and satisfied doing the work, I did. I was scared of achieving the dreams I once had, built, planned and hoped to achieve. I was overwhelmed with so much going on in me and I could feel myself drift away. I had forgotten the little things that connected me with myself and made life enjoyable. I had forgotten how to live, how to be, how to grow, how to feel, how to express and be myself. I had forgotten the meaning of life.
Then came The Experience, a space that fulfilled my dreams. A dream to connect, understand and feel myself better. And from time to time, a dream of a space where leaders could heal and challenge themselves. The challenges were uncomfortable and based on the real-life feelings and emotions, in the journey of a leader. I understood people more, at a personal level. The style of reflection the participants opted for allowed us to be vulnerable with one another and helped us relate with each other. As a leader, this gave me hope and assurance that I was not alone and I have sisters who could stand by me if I reached out.
I experienced love from day one. From the warm unexpected hugs and gift packages, the heart filled letters with beautiful words of welcome, the room that became our haven, the time we spent together, the time we spent connecting within ourselves, to the utmost care and overflowing baskets of wisdom.
Today I feel like I found the wisdom I went out to seek. With the mirrors received, I look at myself to notice, speak and appreciate me. I am ready to take on life as I am supposed to, learning and looking for ways to make sure that I live in my utmost abundance, authenticity, and potential.
I am daily writing about what I commit to do; forgive, gratitude for every day, feelings, connections, exercising, planning, eating better. I am trying to meditate and reflect on the wisdom I got to help me make better life decisions. I value connection so I will keep connections with my sisters and new relationships created. I am infusing the wisdom into how I can better lead the entity and meaningfully grow the selection. I am intentionally living life and seeking growth within me from spaces, people and nature.
"If I still have the fire in me
I won't worry
If I still have the (passion, energy, power, love,) in me
I will be fine.
If I still feel safe
I won't worry"
I understand that my world is beyond me, but also within me. The most amazing thing I recognized is the power I have within me. The universe is watching out for me and I understood how to relate with it in the form of earth, fire, water, air, the heart, my intuition, speech, and soul to connect with life.
I also composed a song that reminds me to check in on me.
"If I still have the fire in me
I won't worry
If I still have the (passion, energy, power, love,) in me
I will be fine.
If I still feel safe
I won't worry"
I feel more grounded, full of control, and I have the ability to create and express myself. I am now more connected with and understand myself better. I am mindful of my actions, words, the people around me. I am more calm, peaceful, in love with Amek and her surroundings. I appreciate life and live life. I have learned to be unapologetic when it comes to being selfish towards my wellness. I am taking rest and allowing myself to have steady growth that lets me be me.
By Joan Amek
